Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Artifical Other

This is my two-cents on an in-class discussion taken outside the class room for homework.


First, I'm going to agree that one does not really have free will. My definition of free will is on a more social level-meaning that free will allows one to choose their job, what to eat and when to eat it, what school they attend, how hard they work. Does free will mean that I can over come my instincts? I don't believe so. Even when a person commits suicide, didn't they come to that conclusion based upon life events, memories, reasons--information--that this is what come next? When a person 'chooses' to continually stop eating, aren't they forcing themselves from doing what is instinctual based off of social pressure? Whenever a human does something that is against instinct, it is not because of free will but rather a string of events and memories that convinces them not to do so.

Why can't a robot do this? After it's been elaborately programmed and goes about doing it's purpose and experiencing life one day at a time, why can't it be considered living? Eventually, the robot will make choices based off of it's experiences just like we do. Go to school, study, graduate, go to college, study, graduate, get a job, buy a car, then a house, etc. What will it go to school for? Well, this might be easier for a robot as it is programmed to know it's purpose where humans must search for theirs. However, based on it's abilities the robot would then have to choose. Get a career that will allow it to make more money? Choose a career that will benefit the community? Both are good and reasonable choices. However, only through it's experiences will a person or a robot make a choice.

Our memories and experiences simply make a large database of information to sort through and organize. Our lives are built upon this information that we use to make decisions. What is the most rational why to do this or that? So my question is do we create robots and search for the answers of artificial intelligence and others to find/create a better us/self/human?

Saturday, August 28, 2010

UCA Ambassador!!!

I had Ambassador training today and it was pretty fun! I can see right now that my schedule is going to get hectic very quickly. All Ambassadors have to help with Bear Facts Day (college day) and do 5 additional tours every semester. I’m really excited to show prospective students how great UCA is and just how they belong here.

RSO Fair!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, so RSO stands for Registered Student Organization and we had a fair today!!! It was very nice outside for once thank God, because I had to be out there. It was good though to see the freshmen trying to be active and having fun. I was at NABMU’s table, that’s the National Association of Black Men United. I love it when girls would ask me if they could be a part of it or if this was a men’s organization. I just smile and begin my brief speech of how women should want to help our black men graduate. I also explain that behind every man is a good woman and that this does not necessarily mean in a relationship. I mean I stand behind most of the men in the organization and they’re like brothers to me.

Monday, August 23, 2010

First Day Back...and I got sick.

 Damn. My room was too cold and then I was out all day in the heat helping the freshmen move-in. I drank some water but I guess it wasn’t enough and I didn’t eat much.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

MOVE-IN DAY!!

Tomorrow is Move-In Day at UCA. I’m going to show the freshmen what it means to have school-spirit. ^_^
With my bear claws and claw scratch, Hehe :) Those freshmen won’t know what hit them!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Pic taken with the Nikon D40…the camera I want…picture not taken by me.  I think the pic is very fitting for today, since it’s my birthday and I’m a leo, haha

Dance! Dance!

Ok so I’ve got the rest of this week left at home before I go to school and I’m super excited! The one reason I’m excited right at this moment is because I plan on taking ballet classes. I’ve figured out what studio I’m going to, the rates, and cost for a cab until I get my car. I can’t wait for the school year!

Calm before the Storm


I’m not usually a cryptic person, but my life is smooth sailing right now and everything is just awesome and blessed. I just wonder if this is the calm before the storm and will I be ready when/if it comes.
The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called failure, a loop called confusion, speed bumps called friends, red lights called enemies, and caution lights called family. You will have flats called jobs. But if you have a spare called determination, an engine called perseverance, insurance called faith, and a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place called success.
I'm learning to braid my hair...it's not an easy process but I'll master it one of these days.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Sometimes, you know it was only by God's grace...


When so many blessing come your way and life is really good to you, sometimes we forget to say thanks to the one who made it possible. I’ve already given him my thanks, but let me share why I feel so blessed.
1.) I’m alive and well. I had a car accident two weeks ago and came out without a scratch.
2.) He allowed me to have two jobs this summer and pass my summer chemistry class (science class and I don’t get along).
3.) I got a $5,000 scholarship.
4.) Someone is buying my Canon SX10 from me so now I can get my Nikon D40.
5.) I needed a dentist appointment before I go back to school. The receptionist said they could fit me in my last day in town.
What has God done for you lately?

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Single vs Relationship

It’s been a while since I’ve been in a relationship. Sometimes, I miss those little moments that one has with that certain someone. I think most of that comes into play when I see or hear my friends talk about their somebody.
I’ve only been in one serious relationship and it was within this past year. Before, however, all of my friends would come to me for advice (and they still do). But I had no experience with anything. I was the single friend, who loves being single. I didn’t have any broken hearts. I didn’t have drama. Sex? WTF? Did I think of boys? Sure, if they were my friend or classmate.
Now? I’m mostly still a single kind of girl. I don’t have to be in a relationship all the time. In fact I prefer not to. That’s what causes drama. But like I said, I do kinda miss having someone to cuddle with, just hang, go out, or talk on the phone with. Ha, my friends say it’s because I don’t have fun. Like, I’m shy when it comes to guys. I should loosen up a little bit and chill. We’ll see how that works.

Friday, July 30, 2010

When helping your best friend get over a break up

  • Do not tell her that there are plenty of fish in the sea. 
She’ll be a smartass, she’ll say, “BUT I DON’T WANT A FISH. I WANT HIM. I WANT HIM BACK. WAHHHHHH.” Then you’re a socially awkward penguin.
  • Do not tell her that he was stupid for leaving her.
She’ll be a smartass, she’ll say, “I WAS STUPID FOR LOVING HIM. WAHHHH.” Then you’re again, socially awkward penguin.
  • Do not tell her that he didn’t deserve her, and that she was too good.
She’ll be a smartass, she’ll say, “IF I’M SO GOOD, WHY DID HE BREAK UP WITH ME. WAAAAAAH.” Then you’re socially awkward penguin.

What you do is, you say, “BITCH. GET THE FUCK UP. WE’RE GOING TO WAL-MART. WE ARE BUYING A GALLON OF ICE CREAM FOR YOUR MOPEY ASS, AND YOU’RE GOING TO CRY. ALL FUCKING NIGHT. YOU WILL WAKE UP TOMORROW MORNING. WE ARE BURNING ALL HIS SHIT. ALL OF IT. WE’LL GO SHOPPING, AND BE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BITCHES ON THE PLANET.”
She can’t be a smartass, and you are no longer caught in a socially awkward situation. You are not a penguin, you are practically jesus.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

It's been awhile...

since I’ve drawn anything. Today, I don’t have to work and I didn’t have an scheduled demos so I stayed at home with my nieces and just chilled. Trying to be productive I decided to whip out my Wacom Bamboo Pen and start drawing in ArtRage. I’ve got one of those You Can Draw books that has a million things in it. So here’s what I did. I need to practice some more but you like?

Change and Choice...


I’m one of those people who puts their all into what they do. My main problem? Trying to figure out that that ‘thing’ is. In an era where I’m not limited on the possibilities available, I find it hard to pick just one or two things to be faithful to. I know they say that it’s normal for people to change their minds, especially in college where people changed majors like they change clothes for a party. When I started college, I went in as a Spanish major. By the end of my first semester, I was a Speech/Language Pathology major. Before spring break, I was a Linguistics major. Now, I’m considering throwing photojournalism or documentary photography in the mix.
I love languages, how they are related to each other and how some are endangered. The cultural aspects of languages and the fact that people live and view life in many different ways is fascinating to me. I also love my camera and being able to capture the moment, create art, being challenged to learn this craft better, to share someone’s story through photography.
I always tell people that change is good. It keeps you on your toes. It makes to learn and deal with life. However, I think I’ve learn to adapt and change so much that I don’t know what’s important anymore. I don’t know what’s right for me.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Natural? Me?

Last summer I got my styled in straw curls for the first time. I fell in love with the style! It was cute, enhanced my facial structure, was easy to maintain, and lasted for up to 2 weeks. Later in the school year, I decided to attempt doing my own straw curls. I knew a girl who had the rollers and a blow dryer. She did my hair for me once and did an awesome  job. I figured I could as well. My curls didn't come out as tightly coiled as the first two times, but it still looked awesome.

I thought to myself, "Girl, if you could get this all the time, how cool would that be?" And by all the time, I meant permanently. So this week, I finally started going some research on how to go about doing just that. Now, like most African-American women, I chemically straighten my hair and have since way back when :) From all the blogs, reviews, and forums I read, and will my kind of hair, I would only be able to continue to use the rollers and dryer to obtain my dream style.

OR

I could go natural and allow my natural curls to take control.There are products that will help keep the moisturized and manageable. My worry is:

1.) That I'd have to cut all my hair off. Maybe not immediately. I could wait until an inch or two or three of natural hair grew out by keeping braids in my head.

2.) Will my natural hair curl the way I want it to? There all about 4 main different kinds of natural hair types and I'm not quite sure which on I am yet and am worried that when it comes down to it, my hair won't curl like I wish.
Here is a picture of a lady who has embraced her natural curls. These are the type of natural curls I want. View her story HERE
 

Thursday, June 17, 2010

What Every Photographer Has To Look Forward To.....

Letter to George

Dear Mr. Johnston,
Thank you for your response attempting to assist me in my Nikon purchase. However, I find your recommendation preposterous and extremely strange coming from a so-called expert. First of all, the D700 at $2,450 is far beyond my budget, which I told you is $400, and way too much overkill for a photographer just setting out, and your suggestion that I purchase 35mm Æ’/2 and 85mm Æ’/1.8 lenses is strange. Those lenses don't even zoom? All of my friends use zoom lenses and that is all my local store carries. I am somewhat mystified by your note.
Sincerely,
George
-Dear George,
Yes, you are absolutely right, and I apologize. Like many aficionados I am excessively affected by my own preferences and habits, and it leads me to give buying advice that is indeed idiosyncratic. The suggestion that you jump in from the get-go with an investment of $3,195 is indeed preposterous (good word).
I would like to make amends by suggesting an objectively more characteristic 25-step course of action for you. My experience in this field has demonstrated many times that this sequence is broadly very typical, and I think you will find that these new recommendations far more objectively trace the course of most serious photographers' investments in their gear.
I apologize again—in what follows, I have used some current model names and numbers as representative of product types, even though what I'm describing is usually a 3–5 year process and actual model numbers and prices will naturally change over than interval.
And I say the process as outlined contains 25 steps; but you might well find there will be more.
Step 1. Purchase a "digicam" or digital point-and-shoot, chiefly because that's what most human beings do first when it occurs to them that they want a camera. This will be preceded by approximately four months of troublesome and increasingly frustrating product research and shopping, during which time you will be learning how to shop but not how photograph. Also during that time, you will be limited to taking pictures with your iPhone. It gradually dawns on you that no one can give you perfectly satisfactory advice about buying a point-and-shoot, for the simple reason that there are roughly 13,796 of them on the market (note: estimate only) with dozens dropping off the cliff into discontinuation and dozens more being introduced all the time, making the search for "the best one" a shifting target even if you could tell them apart. Eventually, lose patience and buy what the local local store counterman recommends, even though in the backmost reaches of your almost-subconscious you suspect that his high level of confidence might be motivated by the fact that he gets a spiff for selling that model because it has a higher profit margin than most of the others, and his boss is pushing him to push it. With tax, it only comes in $30 over your absolute top budget number of $400. Belatedly, you will remember to check B&H Photo, which will be selling the same model, only with an extra card, for $236.
Step 2. Be perfectly happy with your new purchase...for about 2 1/2 months. After that, slowly discover its infuriating shutter lag, the alarming slowness of its lens at full telephoto, its wretched high-ISO performance, and its general frailty and operational quirkiness. Nevertheless, use said digicam for another 1.8 years as you doggedly and determinedly "get your money's worth out of it," even though you pretty much hate it the whole time. Still, it's always with you, you do a lot of snapping, photography's fun.
Step 3. After the digicam fails utterly on an expensive vacation—just when you most needed it to work—buy a Canon G10 premium fixed-lens camera. ($420.)
Step 4. Three weeks later, G11 comes out. Buy that ($470), sell G10 at $150 loss.
Step 5. Realize that G10 actually has more megapixels than the G11; sell G11 ($120 loss), buy another G10.
Step 6. Read about small vs. large sensors on the internet, realize you are not really very happy with the premium point-and-shoot category anyway, because it's still mostly a point-and-shoot and you've just kind of had it with point-and-shoots. Sell second G10 for a $175 loss this time and graduate to an $800 entry-level DSLR, purchased with a "kit zoom." Again, that little voice that is almost buried in your subconscious mentions to you fleetingly that the kit zoom is where the company is saving money on the package price, despite the fact that the lens is what determines the essential look of the pictures. The pictures look much better than the pictures from your now-dead p/s, though, and you're sure—almost—that they look better than the pictures from the G10/11, most of the time—so how bad could it be?
Step 7. Some months later, following the happy congruence of a number of occurrences, namely, 1) an unexpected cash windfall, 2) your wife's uncle's ridicule of your "cheap" camera at a family gathering, 3) your own rather acute embarrassment at having to bring your camera to a rare paying job, during which you were pretty sure you saw your client looking askance at it; 4) dozens more hours spent shopping, and 5) your reading of some 340,000 words on the internet (approximately 1/12th of which were at all useful)—purchase a D90. Sell the entry-level DSLR for 2/5ths of what you paid for it, but keep the lens for the D90. (By the way, you still have your digicam. It doesn't work, can't be fixed economically, and is worth next to nothing on Ebay anyway, but for some strange reason—or, rather, just over 400 strange reasons—you cannot actually bring yourself to physically toss it in the wastebasket. It sits in the closet now. Note: the closet of which I speak is a seldom-mentioned but deeply significant vector very near the beating heart of photographic equipment shopping.
Step 8. Almost immediately after buying the D90, begin dreaming of a D300s.
Step 9. Kit lens from entry-level DSLR seems a little forlorn on the D90, and you're wondering if it's "getting the most out of the sensor." Succumb to "metaphysical doubt" and insecurity, and purchase a magnificent do-everything, fast, premium normal zoom lens. $630.
Step 10. Because the camera is so awkward to carry with your new zoom—which you love, by the way—you inadvertently drop it. Just once. It survives, but the LCD is cracked, and you're not quite 100% certain, but you think some of the electronic menu settings have gone a bit wonky. These imperfections eat at you, just a tiny bit, every time you use the camera.
Step 11. Purchase camera insurance.
Step 12. Due a perception that no serious photographer has just one serious lens, purchase a second lens to "cover all the focal lengths" and "complement" your main lens—another magnificent do-everything, fast, premium zoom lens, but telephoto. $520.
Step 13. Add a macro; your zoom doesn't seem to do close-ups very well. Also $520.
Step 14. Spend several dozen hours proving to yourself by reading and rereading lens tests until you're bleary-eyed that your macro lens is as close to technically perfect as it is possible for a lens to be. It's super sharp! Right out to the corners! The tiny voice that won't shut up mentions to you that your macro pictures still kind of suck, and that there are approximately a Graham's number of macro pictures on the internet already, almost all of which look...well, more or less the same.
Step 15. Because you're not quite satisfied, in a way you can't quite put your finger on, with the output of the tele zoom—it just doesn't quite seem to satisfy you like the images from your main zoom does—you're not quite sure what it is—you again dive into an extended bout of internet research and shopping, and resurface from a long immersion only with the purchase a truly magnificent, professional 80–200mm, constant-aperture zoom. $1080. You give the old tele zoom to your wife's uncle's teenage son, who immediately begins doing fantastic work with it after having suddenly come to the stunning realization that you exist.
Step 16. Troublingly, you find yourself increasingly leaving the camera bag at home, as it now weighs approximately the same, and is roughly the same size, as a concrete block.
Step 17. Wife buys you D300s for birthday! Yay! Best birthday present ever! It's love, pure love—for the wife, not the camera. Sort of for the camera. $1530. You would sell the D90, but since it's broken.... You do mean to get it fixed. It goes in the closet.
Step 18. F**king blo*dy tiny voice begins just the faintest, most distant murmur about full frame.
Step 19. Decide you are not a macro type of photographer. In weak, trifling attempt to lighten bag, macro lens joins old entry-level kit zoom and broken point-and-shoot in closet. Hey, you can always go get it if you need it.
Step 20. Now that you have your beautiful constant aperture pro tele zoom, your old "prosumer" mid-level normal zoom doesn't seem to quite match any more. So you buy a 17–55mm Æ’/2.8 AF-S lens. Which is truly awesome. You totally love it. $1,385. Old zoom goes on Ebay, fetches $230 after shipping and fees. 
Step 21. You consider yourself completely set where equipment is concerned. Completely set. For all time. You will never need anything more, ever. Yet, for some reason, a nagging sense of ennui sets in where your photography hobby is concerned. You realize, in a moment of exquisite clarity which also elicits just a faint touch of existential panic, that you miss shopping. You find yourself diving into shopping for things you know you're not going to buy. Desultorily, you check prices, read reviews. You find yourself getting uncharacteristically snarky on forums you frequent. Then, wandering about in this strange wilderness where shopping is no longer called for, you read some idiot on the internet who maunders on an on about how fun it is to use just one small prime lens. Completely on impulse, then, you snag a copy of the recently introduced 35mm Æ’/1.8. ($200.) Amazingly, it is kind of nice—it makes the big D300 surprisingly handy, almost nimble. Cue metaphors of bare feet, let-down hair, Julie Andrews in various meadows with her angelic sky-facing pie-hole exuding glorious plainsong. You feel...free. Sure, it's not that exciting as a lens, and it's a little too long if you're being honest with yourself, but there's no big bag to carry around. It's easy to grab on the way out the door. To your surprise, your enjoyment ramps up again, much more than just noticeably.
Step 22. Shut up, tiny voice, shut up, shut up, shut up.
Step 23. Your activity as a photographer re-ignited, you suddenly get religion: you are going to buy the best, the very best, to put the demons to rest. With a grim set to your mouth and a feeling of unstoppable determination, you purchase that D700. You hadn't even really been considering it; you weren't really that serious when you did all that research and read all those reviews. Elation vies with guilt as you write the check. $2,450. Little voice grumbles that your initial budget for this whole enterprise was $400, but you tell it to shut up: the D700 now seems almost cheap to you compared to the D3s and D3x. Wife is a tad cross and hurt: it's only been a year and four months since the D300 birthday present. Guiltily, you explain carefully that the D300 is a great backup and how you still really need it, really, how it's still the best present ever, etc. Of course, there's a slight drawback to this: having told her you still need the D300s as a backup, you can't immediately turn around and sell it to offset the cost of the D700 like you really ought to. Not right away, anyway. And of course you need a lens for it, so you keep that beautiful normal zoom. As a bright, shining symbol of your financial responsibility, you sell the macro lens on Ebay. It brings $380, of which $35 is shipping costs and Ebay fees. She goes, "It's your hobby. I just want you to have what you want." Then she adds, "Honey," giving you a look as if perhaps an incubus has invaded your body and taken over your soul.
Step 24. Slight problem with D700: only one of your lenses—the big 80–200mm, which, apart from the macro and the disused kit lens, is the one lens you own that you use the least—now works on your camera. The rest are all APS-C lenses. However, your spending has been out of control, you do have that slightly sick feeling of one who has indulged in something overmuch, your wife now looks somber and concerned whenever the subject of your hobby comes up, you've put black electrician's tape over the "D700" on your new camera in hopes that your wife's uncle won't notice the switch and tease you about it, and you're ever so slightly worried about...well, not your sanity, exactly—it's not that bad—let's just say, your previous reputation for level-headed practicality. So, in a continuation of the "one lens" notion combined with a certain feeling of penitence, you go on Ebay and purchase a very modest used 35mm Æ’/2 AF-Nikkor. $250.
Step 25. Although you're mostly happy with the 35mm, you do one simple head-and-shoulders portrait with the 80–200mm zoom and find it to be...well, preposterous (sorry!). So you add a simple 85mm Æ’/1.8. $425. You mean to get a full-frame replacement for your beloved normal zoom for APS-C—someday; you're toying with the idea of another macro, but one that works on full-frame; a wide zoom might be nice; you occasionally wonder about this or that other lens...but, really, when it gets right down to it, the lenses at either end of a postulated hypothetical 35–85mm zoom do well enough for you most of the time. And they're fast. And portable. And cheap. Besides, your files, while not perfect or automatically imbued with any special magic, are now about as good as it's reasonably possible for files to be, and you've learned by this time—finally—that photography is a matter of learning to shoot, having the camera with you, learning to handle it as if it were second nature, gradually increasing the sophistication of your taste by looking at great work that appeals to you, learning to edit, and discovering your own visual passions, rather than being a matter of equipment.
Total elapsed time: 3–5 years. Over most of that time, you haven't been terribly happy with what you were shooting with. (Remember that 1.8-year stint with the point-and-shoot.)
End-point: D700 and two basic lenses. Plus, that tele zoom that's too heavy to carry around (as well as a bunch of other things) in that closet.
Total major equipment expenditures: $9,770. Of course, you mean to sell the D300s and the AF-S normal zoom—someday—but in point of fact you will probably just basically forget they exist and end up procrastinating until such time in the distant future when the camera, at least, is not worth all that much any more. In the meantime, it's your...backup. Honey.
An investment of $3,195 would have meant you'd have been all set for 3–5 years, perfectly free to concentrate on taking pictures. The expenditure would have amounted to between $1,065 and $639 per year for a very rewarding and renewable hobby. It would have represented a savings of approximately 400 hours of shopping time, $6,575 in cash, and much needless agonizing over trivialities.
Anyway, George, I apologize again for recommending a D700 and two basic lenses even though you're just starting out. No doubt you will want to learn your own lessons, and make your own progress through a succession of gear, just as most photographers do. In my own defense, I can only say that it doesn't really matter anyway, since no one who asks me for purchasing advice ever actually follows that advice anyway! (Really.) But as you can probably deduce from the above, my initial recommendation to you possibly isn't quite as flat-out mad as it might on the surface appear.
But...$400? Please. No one gets away with that.
Cordially,
Mike
P.S. If I managed to do all the arithmetic in this post accurately, it will be a miracle.

Source: Letter To George

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Rough

This weekend has been a little rough for me. Friday was my nephew's graduation from pre-K although he's not 5 yet. You see he, and my sister are moving back to Las Vegas This weekend so his teachers let him graduate with the other kids and he will be in Kindergarden this fall in Las Vegas. I'm so proud of him. Gina (my sister) and Kamari (my nephew) have been here in Pine Bluff for about a year and a half. When they first got here, Kamari didn't really speak to anyone beside Gina and maybe me. He didn't want to hug or go to anyone he wasn't normally exposed to but now he wants to hug strangers in Wal-Mart and he talks to anyone who will listen. Lol, his SLP reported that he was 65% understandable to the careful listener and when he asked him to do something he said, "Wait!" Lol, she was so tickled.

Besides that, on Saturday I helped Gina and Allen (Gina's fiance) pack lup the car and clean the apartment out so they could get on the road. At first when we all woke up, I was fine. I had that job mentality: what's next?, what do I need to do?, is everything done? But as objectives were checked off and the apartment bacame more and more empty, I realized that my sister was leaving and that it would be a long while before we would see each other again.

We went to our parent's house to them to say goodbye. I just sat there and watched because I couldn't talk. I'm the kind of person that will cry over something stupid or when I think I'm disappointing my dad, but when it comes to serious things, I only shed a tear or two and my throat is choked up. We still had one more stop. Gina had to show me where the storage shed was so that I could put some of the stuff from the apartment in it. We got there and Allen helped me unload the Caddy. We joked that dad could do another yard sale just from all the stuff that was piled in storage. Time wound down and I knew I had to saw goodbye. I hugged Kamari, asked him if he'd be a good boy which he nodded yes too as he does to every question lol I knew he didn't realize what was going on. I gave him a kiss and told him I'd miss him. Then I hugged Gina and we didn't let go for awhile. That's when my three tears rolled down my face. I felt Gina suck in a breath to steady herself and that made another tear roll down. She looked up at me and said, "I going to miss you, I won't miss Arkansas, but I'ma miss you baby girl." I said, "I don't anyone would miss Arkansas. I'ma miss you too, Buster. Show how Sears is really ran, uh?" She smiled and nodded. We hugged again. I hugged Allen and he said, " Now you know, if anyone (meaning boys lol) messes with you, called me. You've got our numbers right?" I rolled my eyes, duh. He continues, "I'm serious, you don't want me to have to come down here unanounced. People will actually believe you then when you say you're family is crazy." I laughed. I knew I could count on Allen for anything, just like I could with Gina. We got in our own cars and drove in different directions.

They were heading to Texas first to see Allen's parents and mine and Gina's mom. They called later that night to let me know they got in ok. I knew even before she left that our relationship would never change. I never does, it just continues to grow. no matter the distance between us we are best friends, advisors, confidants, text partners when the other is bored, gossipers--sisters. And that will never change.


Thursday, June 10, 2010

Repost from Tumblr: Pole-Dancing Sport



(Note: Blogger cuts off the the video frame so you'll have to go the youtube to see the edge of the video.)

Quoted from original poster:

Going along with the theme for this week, I bet you all think that pole-dancing is just what strippers do? Well, you’re oh so very wrong. Pole-dancing is becoming a HUGE sport, in Europe, Australia and recently in the United States. Pole-dancing isn’t just about stripping anymore; it’s about grace, beauty, strength, tone, and thrilling audiences by moving bodies in a way that seems impossible! Pole-dancing is becoming so big in Europe infact, that they are considering putting it in as a sport in the Olympics! It takes more strength and ability than rhythmic gymnastics and I’m about to show you why…
Meet Felix Cane everyone! (: She is a 21 year old Australia-native who has been pole-dancing for 10 months. Yes, I’m serious…only 10 months! And she is the best pole-dancer in the world. She won the Miss Pole Dance World competition in 2009. She’s so good in fact, that Cirque Du Soleil saw her dancing, couldn’t believe their eyes, and RECRUITED HER, she now works for Cirque Du Soleil because of what she can do on a pole! Needless to say, she’s phenomenal, absolutely breathtaking, and she can move her body in ways that will make you go, “How the hell is she doing that?!” when you watch her.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Renewed Concert

One of my besties (Best Friend) KC, has his own choir called Renewed. they had their 2nd Annual Concert this past weekend. I recorded it and took some pictures for them. My camera, the lovely Canon Powershot SX10, only shoots videos in .MOV. Now that would all fine and dandy if I had a Mac, but I don't. So I've been searching the web for an hour trying to find a converter of .MOV to .AVI. Sure I've found some but most were trials that only converted a percentage of the video, WTF! However, I think I found one that will do the trick. It's taking it awhile, but not in a hurry, if it's going to do what I want. Hopefully, I'll be able to share a few :)

Thursday, June 3, 2010

DI Globals 2010

Global Finals 2010 was awesome! I now know what it's like on both sides of the fence: as a team member and as an appraiser (judge). It was hard work and long days that began at 6am, but they were so much fun. Processes and rubrics are all the same but the teams always begin something different to the table. The week went by so fast and I can't wait for next year.

Here's a mini run down of how a DI tournament goes:

There are Region, State, and then the Global Tournament. Every team is scored on their Central and Instant Challenges. All teams are divided by the age of the eldest team member into rising star, elementary, middle, secondary, and university level.

Teams prepare for about 9 months on their Central Challenge(CC). The CC can be chosen from 5 different categories that emphasize a main skill: engineering (challenge A), science (B), theater (C), improv (D), and structure (E). Each have certain points, side trips, and attributes that must be met because that's how the team will get their points.

Every team completes an Instant Challenge (IC). For fairness and easy judging, every team of a certain CC and school level have the same IC (i.e. Challenge A, Middle Level teams do the same IC but that's different from Challenge A, Elementary Level).

I had to honor of being an IC appraiser. The IC appraisers are considered a different breed from the Central Challenge appraisers. I'm NOT saying we are better, treated differently, or anything like that. We just are able to form a bond with each other because we are in the same building, eat lunch, take breaks, have the same schedule as each other, and are dismissed at the same time. All the CCs are in different buildings or floors of the Convention Center.

Destination Imagination, Inc. is a phenomenal program and I urge anyone and everyone to try and participate anyway you can: volunteering, donating, be a team manager, be a team member. If you'd like to participate, comment and I'll help you get in contact with your state's affiliate director. Any questions at all, I'd be glad to answer.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Messy Hair

Day Four: Messy Hair

I really wanted to do the rocking red lip stick challenge but I forgot to ask my mom for her lipstick...boo!

I'm attempting to do stay awake all night and sleep on the bus to Knoxville. We'll see how that goes.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I DO DI!!!!

Globals is this week!!!!! I'm am so excited because this year I am DI Alumni and I get to appraise. HOW FREAKING COOL IS THAT!!???? My bestie KC is coming as well. He's an announcer. PLUS...all three of the Scoggins-May-Hall teams are going to Globals. SWEET!!

P.S. DI Globals is a tournament for  Destination ImagiNation Inc. Some people remember it as Oddessy of the Mind. "Destination ImagiNation (DI) is an exhilarating after-school activity in which students work in teams to solve mind-bending Challenges and present their solutions at Tournaments."

WEBSITE: I DO DI
VOLUNTEER!!! It's so much fun.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Lazy Saturday

I can't remember the last time I had a real laid back Saturday. Ok, I lied. But they seem so far and few in between that one comes up, I really treasure it. Saturdays are usually a busy but fun or hectic day. It's either filled with errands to complete that couldn't be done during the week or hanging out with friends and loved ones who have the day off. This Saturday, I was supposed to be helping my sister, Gina, with a yard sale, because she's moving back to Las Vegas in 21 days. The sale was to be at my house (my parent's house) at 7am, so I expected Gina to call me since I had the car. Alas, I didn't wake up until about 10am when she called trying to go to the store. I got the story later that the yard sale had been postponed until the 5th. Oh, lord. So we run minor errands, hit up Wal-Mart, and head back to her place. We do nothing but read and sleep the rest of the day. :)

On another note, I think I might try to do one of those 365 day projects. I'm good at sticking to them but we'll see. I started yesterday so here is yesterday and today's pictures.I mix it up with the 100 stranger project. IDK yet.


       Day One                                    Day Two

Thursday, May 20, 2010

NOT COOL!

i cant stay sleep pass 11 but
the night before i went to LR for the poetry slam i told you about
and then went to ualr where one of my friends stays (i almost went to ualr)
and i was getting uberly tired because i had to drive back to the bluff
but thankfully i wasn't tired once i hit the road
nor was i tired when i finally got home
and i saw you were online so well
you know how that story went
so back to the next day

me-picking up my sis at 2
waking up at 1:20
NOT COOL
i still had to shower
and drop by her house to get her laundry
ok so i get her and we head to the laundry mat
but we cant do anything
but my dumbass left the quarters at her apartment
so we go to wendys on the way to her place
i get a 99 cent frosty

that i didn't realize SHRUNCK
to the size of one of those barrel juices
my sis was rolling
she said
i looked at the cup
i looked at the man in the window
i looked at the cup
i looked at the man in the window
and took the cup
then i was pissed cuz i didn't get a straw
i don't eat frostys with a spoon
i don't
so we get to her apartment and i go in to the quarters but i forget her flip flops
so i go back in
ok so now we are going back to the mat
and i'm sucking the frosty
through the plastic lid

i'm driving and squeezing the small cup
and you know wendys frostys are not all the way frosty
so some of it leaks out
and on to my shirt
my sister is rolling and i don't know why
because i cant feel it
but then i look down
and see a nice thick chocolate trail down my shirt
NOT COOL!

i think there was another funny that day but i cant remember it now

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Hectic Fun


Today started off similar to any other day this summer thus far. I woke up early to take my sister and nephew to work and school respectively and went back home to hop under my still warm covers. Normally, I try to wake up around 10am, but today I didn't crawl out of bed until 12:30pm. Normally, I take a shower at night because I dislike the idea of getting in bed dirty, but today I took a shower when I woke up because that action was nonexistent last night. Normally, I pick my sister up from work around 2 pm, and today...well, I did the normal and arrived at Sears at 2pm where she was waiting for me.

This is where my day started to get kind of hectic. Now, I already knew I wanted to go to a Poetry Slam in Little Rock with my bestie Christine. However, as the day went along this is what happened. Pete asked me if I wanted to go to Chili's with his girlfriend, Michelle, so I could meet her and then we'd all go to the Poetry Slam. Ok, cool. Now to ask the parents if all of this is ok. Damn...I forgot to wash the dishes, but mama still let me go (really though, I cleaned the kitchen last yesterday, so there couldn't have been to many dishes in the sink because no one was home yet).

When it came down to it, Christine couldn't bring us back to Pine Bluff, therefore she couldn't come get us. So Pete let me drive his car and Christine paid for gas. Ok, cool, no problem. We meet Christine at her apartment and headed for Big Whiskey's where the Slam is being held.

                    MC: Osiris 
 
                      MoeMan                                 Crisis
 
                       Apollo
 
TJ and Christine                           Pete and Michelle

The Slam was awesome. Turned out it was a two night event and this was night number two. I already knew a couple of the poets: MoeMan, Crisis, TJ, and Apollo. I was sad that I missed TJ performing his poem "Dipping in the Chocolate" it's one of my faves. Congrats to Apollo who was one of the top three winners! The night was super fun and I was tired but I still had to drive back home. Not Cool! Surprisingly and thankfully, when I actually got on the road, I wasn't the bit least tired and safely carried everyone home.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Finding My Niche

I have a Facebook, like most people do, and as I was browsing my News Feed. I happened upon and interesting picture. I love looking at other photographer's work because it inspires me. So as I'm creeping on this person album, I happen to notice other really good pictures. I noticed that this person wasn't my friend, so I added them. After he accepted I started a chat convo with him. My new friend and I talked for probably 5 hours. He's decided to start a blog as well and as the conversation went on, he helped me to find a focus for my blog. I've decided to changed the name from Exploration to Finding My Niche.

I have all these different passions all dealing with the arts in some sort of way. I love theater, drawing, and music. However, during high school playing music in the band just...well, I fell out of love with it. I actually want to sell my clarinet, but I haven't convinced my parents of it yet. Because of all the extra activities I did in high school, I didn't have time to just sit down and draw like I used to. The only drawing I did was through the Art Club-making banners, posters, entering contests, etc. Senior year I didn't do much acting because I was trying to make sure events went smoothly, grades stayed up, and getting into college. The only thing I did was help direct my friend's black history program at his church.

In college, I saw all kinds of posters up for students who needed people to perform in their plays for the theater department. Every time I saw one, I wished I could audition, but I couldn't. I was afraid that I wouldn't study like I needed. Also I was spending a lot of time with a new found passion: dance. I am part of dance organization on campus and we perform at many programs. I really want to learn dance though, such as, ballet (I know it's hard work), jazz, tap, contemporary, all of it. I just want to learn. Unfortunately, no one in Pine Bluff will give instruction for 18 year olds. ~Sigh~ Sometimes it's hard being legal.

For now, I'll just have to stick with the passion I've had since I was like 7: photography.


Saturday, May 15, 2010

Too Much In One Day

Throughout freshman year of college, my high school friends and I tried to meet up with each just to hang out. However, with most of us attending different colleges...well, it can be hard to get everyone together. Now that we're all home for the summer (well for awhile anyway), we finally got a chance to get the whole gang together.




We really didn't know how we were going to spend the day. Ha, we had a 3-way phone convo at about 10am trying to figure out who was going to ride with who and pick up who, and where we were going to go. We finally decided on Subway. I don't know why I didn't take pictures there :(




After Subway, some of us had errands to run. I didn't have my car and my dad called me. He had me go pick up rent, food, my nephew, and drop everything off while I was in KC's car. As you can see, we had to stop for gas.






Poor Daryl had a long night and day and still had prom to attend. He rested his eyes and just rode while KC and ran errands. It was SOOO hot though! Even with the windows rolled down.










Pete was the other main driver. He had Jimmy and Hos in his car. He was going to get his tux for the prom.










After everyone was done running errands, we met up at the Delta Nature Trail in Regional Park. Before you go into the building, there's a bridge to cross. This fella lives in the pond that we crossed.

















The rest of the pictures are of various wild and domesticated animals at the Delta.





Well except for these guys, of course. These are pictures of my friends while on the trail.